The inner sanctum of my mind

And less then an hour after I posted, I find that Robert has gone and started shit... yet again. 

Apparently, I made him owe a $10,000.00 internet bill.... he was spreading rumours to people at Woolies Nightcliff, where he works and I do my groceries.  I only know about this now, becasue my good friends dad is his boss at work and overheard him telling his lies to come of the chechout people at work.....



I know for a fact that I left him with no bills to pay.  The electricity phone bill and internet were all in my name and those were paid out when I left.  Everything he earnt for himself after that was ALL HIS.  The fact that he got a $10,000.00 internet bill must of been because of all the porn he would download - he must have picked a speedy plan with no download shaping limit or cut off point and paid through the teeth for it.... that is if he even got any bills and is only looking for a way to drag my name through the mud further,



Karma will come I wont winge further - other then to defend myself and document the lies he spreads about me :(



How dare he ruin my good mood - I did try and call him and see if he could explain himself, but he did not answer his phone...ah well. 



No skin off my nose really, I wash my hands of him...... if something bad happens to him and he should get hurt tomorrow, then so be it.  I have lost all respect for him now to the point there is nothing left. s

Am happy.

Got a great boyfriend
Getting a new car
Uni is almost over and i'm not too far behind

Life is good

And then Rai told Robert about Aaron and I getting married...

Bwhahahahaha! It made my day. It was a joke but it was dam funny.

Thats so silly, Robert freaked when he heard the "news". I do wonder where she got it from though - maybe some of her classmates were talking about somthing like that.

Aaron knew I was freaking out about my classwork and other various bits and peices today and so he came over and gave me a rub for being good when I finished my stupid report, took us out for some drinks and spent some quality time with me.

I really do think I'm the luckiest woman in the world at times.

Who knows.

Maybe one day........

Well I did somthing good today - well I wont say good but somhing positive in the right direction.

Lunch got pretty screwed over today with this interview course /workshop that Aaron was up to, and so we kinda had one of those days where it just wasnt going to happen. So Instead of being shitty and cranky about somthing that couldnt be changed, I offered him the use of my car to get himself some lunch and asked if he could bring me back somthing whilst he was there :) Instead of just a Paul's iced coffee, he went out of his way to get a gloria jeans one with whipped cream and all ^-^ mmmmmm.

It wasn't exactly the talk I was hoping for, or the company being that I saw him for a total of 5 minutes - but it was better than nothing, and the fact I am trying to step back and think about things, is always a step in the right direction.

Had a shitty meeting today too, I think the other students are trying to avoid me as I am always so judgemental of their work. Its not my fault that I want everything in the meetings to be perfect - I get marked on their performance!!! Otherwise I wouldnt care, but I do want to pass and get out of here and into the real world.

In an effort to stop Rai from "touching" the other students, I had a talk to her about what she did wrong, and gave her an example of how it feels to be touched when you dont want to be and to act all stupid about it. I think she understood as she did not need a reminder this morning about what she needed to do in class etc. I also packed an extra sandwhich ontop of all the extra food I have been giving her, so that Ms Montaque doesnt keep harping on at me about Rai eating all her food at recess. I think its going to be a hard yard with Rai - but i'm getting there - her interest in reading has increased by 200% and shes always wanting to read - also less tv and more pyshical activities like swimming. Shes getting there.

Lets hope things look up!

From me to my past.

I don't love you, but I am getting these horrible urges to call you. Am sitting here wondering why the hell you havnt called me in three weeks to even bother to see your child. I just want to abuse the fuck out of you for being a terrible parent. You can rid yourself of me, but you will always be somthing in her life... whatever you make that somthing is up to you. If you keep this up she is going to hate you and it will be none of my fault.

You shit me off more now when you are not even in my life, then when you were there letting me down. Your absense is making a hell of a lot more impact on otherpeoples live.... what does that really say about you and the influence you had on us? Think about it.

We are happy now, and even though I still remember some of the good moments, I know I could never let them go back to the way it was - not now, ever or if you are the last person left on earth. I wash my hands of you just like you did your little girl.

Jackass.

Am getting ready to go out for our anniversary dinner atm.

I'm pretty excited really, looking forward to some good food great company and perhaps a nice stroll along the beach

:) lets hope its a nice evening - will keep you posted.

Debate continues as to if the person in this film clip is actually a woman.

How do you know when its love? 

Some say its when you feel so totally comfortable around somone that it just seems right - you can do anything or say anything to them and be comfortable about it. 

Others say you know, when you can feel it, when you know its right. 

Even that whole, you would give anything to be with them, travel for days to see them for an hour - do stupid stuff to get their attention and see them smile - has been said before. 

And the finale - you would do anything to see them happy - even if that is letting them go so they can be with somone who is good for them.

How do YOU know? Is it a combination of all of the above - or somthing completley different? Am not asking for myself here, I know how I know - but am trying to see if I am a freak or I think along the same lines as everyone else.

If you could ask anyone a question and get the guaranteed truth, who would you ask and what would you ask?

You can ask more than one person one question.